From the recording In Light and Shadow
Lyrics
Benediction
© 2017 AJ Crawshaw
I never feel more lonely then in a crowded room
I never feel more heartache then face to face with you
It never cuts more deeply than after you are through
I don’t want to go back but I do because I’m supposed to
I’m a contradiction
A walking prediction of how messed up should look
I’m an infliction
This a benediction of a loser
I never felt more hated than when I was at school
I never felt more rated than when you made me the fool
I don’t want to fit in that feels partially true
‘Cause I don’t want your friendship if that means being like you
I’m a contradiction
A walking prediction of how messed up should look
I’m an infliction
This a benediction of a loser
I always thought I’d make it if I tried hard enough
I always thought they’d see me as a diamond in the rough
I thought that I was winning, when I hadn’t made a cent
Truthfully I am now as I was, screwed up and bent
I’m a contradiction
A walking prediction of how messed up should look
I’m an infliction
This a benediction Whoa
Help me Lord knows I need it
Test me Lord knows I need it
Heal me Lord knows I need it
Jesus if you love the sinner can you love the drop kick too
Please love us too
We’re not cool like you
But you’ll love us too, won’t you. Won’t you?